Long time no write...

To be honest, I feel like I am in some sort of funk, a loss of words. Do you ever feel like, you just don't feel like it?  I am still creating, but it feels like a trickle, I haven't blogged-not even Mommy Monday.

I have some sort of inner argument going on. I just came back from an amazing trip, trip of a lifetime. Incredible, inspiring on many levels, and I have written nothing here. I spent the week after the trip, catching up with my journal and art about Scotland, I am still working on it-processing it. The trip was packed of juiciness, so packed that I didn't take time to process it there. 

Maybe I am overwhelmed with inspiration and where to start. Sometimes I wake up and ego says, why are you even doing this, it would be so much easier if you just stopped, I imagine throwing out all my stuff, and I walk around frustrated. 

In my heart I know creating is where I want to be, and what I want to share, but it has its ups and down. Usually when I feel this way, resisting it, I make myself show up to it. Write now it is this post. 

I think that Scotland was such an expansion of my comfort zone, that I am going through some transformation. I have cocooned myself in my house-taking lots of alone time-which has been amazing, it is something that I rarely get-but is also leaving me feeling disconnected.

So maybe this post is my first step out of the cocoon. Time to spread the old wings again and put myself out there and see what happens.

Do you ever feel this way? Do the things you love to do or dreams feel so big that you feel like giving up, even though you know that is not the answer? I guess sometimes you need to see the other side so you can reject it. What do you do to get out of that funk/mind set?

The Mixed Media piece above is one of the ways I work through things. There is layer upon layer. I journaled about my trip and experiences, feelings, thoughts, ideas-crumpled, ripped and glued them down-along with a map of Edinburgh, and other papers collected in  Scotland. I covered it with gesso and used a photo I caught of a sparrow at Urquhart Castle. An image that I completely fell in love with. Creating no matter what the visual outcome, helps me process and work through my experiences and feelings, sometimes answers reveal themselves sometimes they don't. Sometimes I feel better, sometimes I feel worse-but something comes out of me regardless and makes room to grow, and that's all I hope for.