When I started commiting to my art practice two years ago I had not found the multitude of in depth online art courses and was experimenting with my materials. I really loved the results and art that emerged. Then I wanted to expand and learn new and better my techniques, so I began taking classes on faces, abstract, art journaling, and working on canvas. I love the classes, but still feel something was missing. I haven't been experimenting on my own anymore.
I really want to find my unique style and have confidence in my art. I have come to realize that I spend too much time looking externally for inspiration. The classes I took were definitely helpful and gave me tools to use. With each piece I made I added my own flair and I love them, but they don't feel 100% me. I can spend hours procrastinating on Pinterest looking for " inspiration" and then do nothing with it.
Looking within is an issue I have with decision making too. I tend to over think things and ask everyone's opinion before making a decision for myself. When really if I sit down and really ask myself what I want I know the answer- but sometimes the answer scares me. When the answer scares me I can easily make excuses to avoid it, which equals a lot of mused opportunities.
It is my goal in 2014 to start creating and making decisions from within- instead of looking for how to do something, or worrying that it isn't good enough or what others will think and giving up.
There is a class I really want to be apart of that works with you to empower yourself and others through art using the sacred feminine. The course sounds magnificent and us called the Color of Woman. It is very intensive and is an investment. I accidentally stumbled across it last week and as I read about the program and the artist (Shiloh Sophia McCloud) my whole body was saying this is for me, this is what I have always wanted to do with my art. Then I saw the price and the questions came in- is this for me I would ask myself and the first couple times some coincidences happened, then the only response in would get is "you already know the answer". The answer is yes do it, but the other side of me has the what ifs-what if you don't have time? What if you don't follow through? What if an emergency happens?.... What if you don't do this and you regret it? So I took action and applied for the program- got accepted- next round interview with the artist- got accepted...I want this to happen- it is everything this blog is suppose to be about- taking the leap and building my wings on the way down. I haven't slept well since Decembet 4th because it is all I could think about-all the possibilities, all the what ifs, all the excuses, debates going on in my head. I have until Friday to claim my seat I will let you know what I ended up deciding.
Visit my Society 6 Shop for prints and accessories
Social Media Feed
Jennifer Russell was born and raised in New Brunswick, Canada.She is an Intentional artist who focuses on creating meaning full connections to her work for herself and others. Nothing is more satisfying to her than hearing that her work has inspired someone in their own life.