How I love nursing you. Sure we had a rough start while we both learned how, but now we have it.
I love how at the beginning you would nestle in and clasp your hands, and at the end give a small contented little grin saying I am full.
Now I love how you start and look up at me while using your hand to stretch out and grab my nose, lips, chin, shirt, and catch my eyes with a big smile.
I can't help but imagine what your life will be like, who you will become, and all the different things you will do during your life; so many possibilities. Then I smile and leave the dreams to you, because you are here with me now, and now is what counts.
Last night I attempted to add the outline if the face to my background (for awakening the Legendary Woman the first painting required for Color of Woman training). It didn't go so well. I would put a line, run it off almost done, nope don't like it...rub it off. I left my canvas feeling sad, frustrated and confused.
I have drawn and painted faces before and never worries about the initial outline so much. I was confused as to why this one was making me feel differently. This is the biggest face I have done (on a 3x4 foot canvas), and while this process is intuitive and intentional I feel I am already visualizing how it 'should' look. Making this expectation of how it 'should' look has released the inner critic. That voice that tells me things aren't good enough and creates the fear of doing something 'wrong'.
This morning I set the goal that I would do the face today, and let go of the inner critic. I put the brush to the canvas and let go. Of course there were lines I didn't like, but instead of criticizing myself I just used it as an opportunity to explore what type of line I liked and what different shapes would do. Exploring the canvas and keeping my mnd open made it much easier.
Explore is my word for this year. To me it makes everything an adventure or journey. To look at life with wonder. I am sure there will be times I forget this and life won't seem like an adventure, but I hope that being aware of how I approach life ( and the canvas) will be more and more an exploration, and the inner critic will arise less and less.
"She pursued big dreams instead of small realities"
In a past post I wrote about my desire to be part if a certification art class called Color of Woman 2014 (COW 2014). I had my interview and was welcomed into the circle of women that will be taking the course.
Officially the class doesn't start until April, but my first painting has to be done by then on a 3x4 foot canvas. The painting/journey for this is about awakening the Legendary Self. The story and the woman who lives deep inside me- who has been afraid to be seen too often- and setting her free. So far I have the portal ready to bring this woman on to
Already the community surrounding this class is incredible. With the support and guidance from teachers and other students, you can feel the love radiating from this group.
By the end of this year I will have done over seven 3x4 foot paintings. I am very excited to be sharing this journey with you as I get my hands messy and delve into a peice of my life's work.
This is my story....
Tonight is the full moon. This months moon is known as the wolf moon. It is also the smallest the moon will appear this year- 4% smaller then it averagely appears due to the distance from the earth.
The full moon signifies the end of a cycle, death, a time for release, and finishing projects
For this months moon I am going to go for a massage with Peter. Hopefully to release some tension and relax physically and mentally.
I have also finished a painting that I started a year ago, and has transformed into something completely different. My motivation and inspirationfor finishing it was to make it a gift for my sister and her boyfriend. It was easier to work on with an intention in mind. I can't post it yet because they haven't seen it finished yet, but I will.
This little monkey melts my heart every minute of the day. Even when he's unhappy I know there is a smile just around the corner.
I really like how this one turned out. It is inspired by the artist Flora Bowley. I absolutely love her painting gd and philosophies- u also took her art class, which is amazing.
Like father like son. Couldn't resist taking this picture.
At 4 months Kieran can almost sit up with very little support, he has find his feet and his feet can cheer him up better then I can sometimes, he is experimenting with different sounds and practicing louds and softs, he is very interested in his surroundings now and likes to look for sounds he hears, he can grasp pretty accurately with two hands and is getting better with one (especially my nose), he is starting to laugh in little bursts when we say hi-ya, ah- ha, or when daddy sings lolli-pop- they must be said with a loud inflection on the second part if the word for it to work though, he is sleeping well through the night (hope I didn't jinx myself, he is wearing 6 and 9 month clothing ( he is long and slim, so they fit him length wise, but are baggy everywhere else), and he loves the outdoors-if he is upset taking him outside instantly calms him down.
So far so good. I am really happy with the progress of this one. I still have some work to do on the flower and dragon fly- but I think she is almost done. This one is from a class's with Shiloh Sophia McCloud-called " Tea with a Muse".
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Jennifer Russell was born and raised in New Brunswick, Canada.She is an Intentional artist who focuses on creating meaning full connections to her work for herself and others. Nothing is more satisfying to her than hearing that her work has inspired someone in their own life.